Emery's Preschool Christmas Program

Logan turns NINE!!

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year...

Enduring...

 "Lucifer whispers that life's not fair and that if the gospel were true, we would never have problems or disappointments...The gospel isn't a a guarantee against tribulation. That would be like a test with no questions. Rather, the gospel is a guide for maneuvering through the challenges of life with a sense of purpose and direction." --Sheri L. Dew.

The gospel is there for us to cling to with both hands as we trudge through the challenges of life and watch our testimonies blossom. Lucifer would have as believe that it's unnecessary, limited, or false. He waits for us to stumble so we can be led astray, but we can hold to the faith we have and carry on, carry on, carry on! 

When you've fallen down...

Can I just  see right here how grateful I am for a prophet that lives today to give counsel and guidance  when we need it most?
" there are times when we will experience heartbreaking sorrow when we will grieve and when we may be tested to our limits. However,  such difficulties allow us to change for the better, to rebuild our lives in a way our heavenly father teaches us, and to become something different  from what we were, more understanding than what we were, more empathetic then what we were, with stronger testimonies then we had before." -- Thomas S. Monson October 2013

Something 2016 has taught me is that a truly repented heart, a truly humbled soul has to literally change. Become more than you were before. Only then can you grow. Can your testimony, your love be, your sight, your heart, etc grow. And that's why we're here...to grow.

Clinging to my Mustard Seed...

There's a song titled "Temporary Home" that I like because it rings with such hope that this life is not the end. No sin we commit ever need be permanent, and our family ties can carry over to eternity.

The chorus sings, "This is my temporary home, it's not where I belong. Windows and rooms that I'm passing through, this is just a stop on the way to where I'm going. I'm not afraid because I know this is my temporary home."

Right now my temporary home is dark. Depression. Suicide. Fog. Feeling empty. And shameful. Lost.

I know this is all temporary, that I'm battling a mental illness and severe depression- that quite honestly I wish would just hurry up and be done with- but some days it's difficult to move. It's difficult to wake up. 

But this is temporary!! Like every phase of life, this too shall pass. Right now I'm in the thick of it, and it's so hard to know what to do. Especially when I'm struggling to know who I am. What should I plan for? How do you plan when you don't even know who you are?

You start with a seed. A mustard seed. And you build that up.

I am clinging on to my Mustard Seed of faith with everything that I am.

My enemy is fighting hard, maybe his hardest, but with this seed I will move mountains...