I'm not even mad, I'm impressed...

I am 39.2 weeks along... just a few days left! And so many mothers have given me looks of puty and tons of "Hang in there"'s and even some "You must be so miserable!"
And really, with a six year old and a five year old to keep up with, i shpuld be feeling miserable.... but surprisingly, I'm really not! I'm sore, sure! And my ankles (or should I say kankles) become super swollen at the end of each day! But the hardest or most tediest part is: the CONSTANT questions!!!
People who literally ask me when I'll go into labor. Or when my doctor thinks i'll go into labor. Or my absolute favorite: Why Haven't You Had That Baby Yet?!
Really people? I have no control over this! And what really bugs me is that I'm getting all these questions when I haven't even gone over my due date! I 'm not even late!
Whats more is these questions started when I was still just 34-35 weeks along... Relatives literally calling me to ask if I had gone into labor yet... Seriously. I'll let you know!
I am just as excited to see this baby. No, I'm pretty sure I'm the most excited and anxious. But please, let me focus on bringing her into this world, and safely! Then allow my husband and I do hold her, meet her, and love and bond with her.... Then allow our boys to meet her and love her....
THEN the rest can meet her.
Wow. I guess I had more to get off my chest than I thought! I really do appreciate the concerns, the love and support that we recieve, and the love that so many have for our daughter already! But I have no control over her arrival, and really, my doctor is limited there too! And I am just so grateful and thankful that she is healthy and well. I dont know anyone who would wish to have a premature birth! I am impressed that she has stayed inside me for so long! And I love it, she's recieving the best care right where she's at. Right where she needs to be. Right where she's supposed to be. Right where Heavenly Father wants her to be...
 Heavenly Father has a plan for her. I am grateful to be blessed with children. My two sons and my daughter. He has had a plan for each of them, a plan for each of us all along... He has a plan for her too, and so far that includes staying in the womb!

39 weeks...

Well, I am 39 weeks along, which normally means that I could go into labor at anytime.... Guess I'm just waiting for that to happen now!
When I was pregnant with Aiden, my water broke on Tuesday, October 10th 2006 at my doctor appointment around 10am... Contractions became regular at around 5pm, and He was born at 5:25am the following morning. Exactly one week before his due date, October 18th.
When I was pregnant with Logan I was diagnosed with Polyhydramnios, which means I had way too much amniotic fluid. So his due date moved around a lot! From late December to early January. Finally, because of so many unknowns and risks, I was induced on Friday, January 4th. Went in at 8 o'clock am, my water broke on its own around 4 o'clock, and Logan was born at 5:25pm that evening!
So far, I am still dilated to 3 centimeters. Emery is still really high and has not dropped. Doctor is a little concerned that if my water does break before she drops that the umbilical cord with fall ahead of her and cause problems... With only one week left, I'm hoping she'll drop in her own, and that labor will follow soon after. :)

38 weeks...

12 more days... Just 12 more days...
Although. At my last appointment a couple days ago, we learned that I am already dilated to 3cm! Yay... Except you can be dilated to 3cm and stay there for up to two weeks... So technically she's showing no signs of coming any sooner than her due date, April 4th...
Bummer.
I am starting to feel worn down. Feeling tired easily. Swollen ankles, swollen hands... Pressure, cramping and misery... But no contractions.
My "nesting instinct" keeps me busy, constantly cleaning our house! I've never been so "on top" of the dishes and laundry!
Why can't this instinct followed by the necessary bursts of energy stay after babies come? Lol!
Daniel's birthday is this Friday, March 29th (just a few days away.) My due date (if she decides to hold out till then, is just 6 days later...) Either way, their birthdays will be right on top if each other... Not that there's anything wrong with it, I just don't prefer it. The month of March is already packed with other family members birthdays! :/

Well, my next appointment is this Tuesday (my 39 week check up.) Here's hoping for some good news.

37 weeks...

Today I am 37 weeks, just 3 weeks left! Just 21 days!
I am excited, and nervous. And like a roller coaster, that's how my emotions have been lately. Excited and then nervous. Then excited. And then nervous. For a while, the "nervous" feeling gave me drive to "nest" and go around the house making sure I prepared everything I possibly could before she comes... My hospital bag, tons of hand soap for the bathrooms... And toilet paper... Oh, and feminine supplies... And a small hospital bag for Daniel... And cleaning and organizing our closet... And the boys' closets... And a big, emergency sleepover bag full of several changes of clothes for both boys and books and coloring supplies.... And organizing the downstairs closet.... And the laundry room... And the pantry... And so on...
But now that drive is slowing, I'm feeling very prepared, and very exhausted. And now when my emotional coaster goes from excited to nervous: I get anxious and my mind wanders... I start freaking out. Yikes, hormones! Take it easy!
  And for this, I am blessed by a very understanding Heavenly Father who blesses me with my very understanding husband. And I remember to Stop. Breathe. And Pray! And thankfully, when I pray I am comforted. When I pray, I am increased. My patience, my energy, my thoughts, focus, concentration, ability to cope are increased. I am so grateful. And I have seen that our family is increased, as well. My husbands patience. His energy. His love and ability to provide are increased. Our children are increased. Their patience, their comfort, their love and ability to cope are increased.
We are truly being blessed, and are so very grateful for it. I am excited right now, happy for our family, where we are and where we're heading. Happy for our newest family member to join us. I know that when I am exercising faith in Heavenly Father, when I pray, and have the Spirit with me, I am happy and excited. It's only when I allow the Spirit to leave and begin to lose faith and begin to doubt that I feel anxious, nervous and alone.

36 weeks...

I am now 36 weeks, just 4 more weeks to go! I had a blast at my baby shower, so grateful to all my friends and family that made it possible (and so pretty!)

  I've been so distracted by my curiosity, lately... It is such a small and unimportant thing to be focusing on, but it has been a great distraction from stressing about everything!! 

  I love how vivid and crazy my dreams are when I'm pregnant. In my dreams about Emery, she has looked more like Aiden than Logan. Always dark hair, but sometimes olive skin and sometimes light skin... 

Comparisons:

Aiden has daddy's feet and my hands, and Logan has my feet and daddy's hands.

Aiden has daddy's hair, eyes, nose, mouth, and ears. And Logan has my hair, eyes, nose, mouth, and ears.

As nervous as I am about our lives changing so soon, I am still really excited for her arrival!!