37 weeks...

Today I am 37 weeks, just 3 weeks left! Just 21 days!
I am excited, and nervous. And like a roller coaster, that's how my emotions have been lately. Excited and then nervous. Then excited. And then nervous. For a while, the "nervous" feeling gave me drive to "nest" and go around the house making sure I prepared everything I possibly could before she comes... My hospital bag, tons of hand soap for the bathrooms... And toilet paper... Oh, and feminine supplies... And a small hospital bag for Daniel... And cleaning and organizing our closet... And the boys' closets... And a big, emergency sleepover bag full of several changes of clothes for both boys and books and coloring supplies.... And organizing the downstairs closet.... And the laundry room... And the pantry... And so on...
But now that drive is slowing, I'm feeling very prepared, and very exhausted. And now when my emotional coaster goes from excited to nervous: I get anxious and my mind wanders... I start freaking out. Yikes, hormones! Take it easy!
  And for this, I am blessed by a very understanding Heavenly Father who blesses me with my very understanding husband. And I remember to Stop. Breathe. And Pray! And thankfully, when I pray I am comforted. When I pray, I am increased. My patience, my energy, my thoughts, focus, concentration, ability to cope are increased. I am so grateful. And I have seen that our family is increased, as well. My husbands patience. His energy. His love and ability to provide are increased. Our children are increased. Their patience, their comfort, their love and ability to cope are increased.
We are truly being blessed, and are so very grateful for it. I am excited right now, happy for our family, where we are and where we're heading. Happy for our newest family member to join us. I know that when I am exercising faith in Heavenly Father, when I pray, and have the Spirit with me, I am happy and excited. It's only when I allow the Spirit to leave and begin to lose faith and begin to doubt that I feel anxious, nervous and alone.