39 weeks...

Well, I am 39 weeks along, which normally means that I could go into labor at anytime.... Guess I'm just waiting for that to happen now!
When I was pregnant with Aiden, my water broke on Tuesday, October 10th 2006 at my doctor appointment around 10am... Contractions became regular at around 5pm, and He was born at 5:25am the following morning. Exactly one week before his due date, October 18th.
When I was pregnant with Logan I was diagnosed with Polyhydramnios, which means I had way too much amniotic fluid. So his due date moved around a lot! From late December to early January. Finally, because of so many unknowns and risks, I was induced on Friday, January 4th. Went in at 8 o'clock am, my water broke on its own around 4 o'clock, and Logan was born at 5:25pm that evening!
So far, I am still dilated to 3 centimeters. Emery is still really high and has not dropped. Doctor is a little concerned that if my water does break before she drops that the umbilical cord with fall ahead of her and cause problems... With only one week left, I'm hoping she'll drop in her own, and that labor will follow soon after. :)

38 weeks...

12 more days... Just 12 more days...
Although. At my last appointment a couple days ago, we learned that I am already dilated to 3cm! Yay... Except you can be dilated to 3cm and stay there for up to two weeks... So technically she's showing no signs of coming any sooner than her due date, April 4th...
Bummer.
I am starting to feel worn down. Feeling tired easily. Swollen ankles, swollen hands... Pressure, cramping and misery... But no contractions.
My "nesting instinct" keeps me busy, constantly cleaning our house! I've never been so "on top" of the dishes and laundry!
Why can't this instinct followed by the necessary bursts of energy stay after babies come? Lol!
Daniel's birthday is this Friday, March 29th (just a few days away.) My due date (if she decides to hold out till then, is just 6 days later...) Either way, their birthdays will be right on top if each other... Not that there's anything wrong with it, I just don't prefer it. The month of March is already packed with other family members birthdays! :/

Well, my next appointment is this Tuesday (my 39 week check up.) Here's hoping for some good news.

37 weeks...

Today I am 37 weeks, just 3 weeks left! Just 21 days!
I am excited, and nervous. And like a roller coaster, that's how my emotions have been lately. Excited and then nervous. Then excited. And then nervous. For a while, the "nervous" feeling gave me drive to "nest" and go around the house making sure I prepared everything I possibly could before she comes... My hospital bag, tons of hand soap for the bathrooms... And toilet paper... Oh, and feminine supplies... And a small hospital bag for Daniel... And cleaning and organizing our closet... And the boys' closets... And a big, emergency sleepover bag full of several changes of clothes for both boys and books and coloring supplies.... And organizing the downstairs closet.... And the laundry room... And the pantry... And so on...
But now that drive is slowing, I'm feeling very prepared, and very exhausted. And now when my emotional coaster goes from excited to nervous: I get anxious and my mind wanders... I start freaking out. Yikes, hormones! Take it easy!
  And for this, I am blessed by a very understanding Heavenly Father who blesses me with my very understanding husband. And I remember to Stop. Breathe. And Pray! And thankfully, when I pray I am comforted. When I pray, I am increased. My patience, my energy, my thoughts, focus, concentration, ability to cope are increased. I am so grateful. And I have seen that our family is increased, as well. My husbands patience. His energy. His love and ability to provide are increased. Our children are increased. Their patience, their comfort, their love and ability to cope are increased.
We are truly being blessed, and are so very grateful for it. I am excited right now, happy for our family, where we are and where we're heading. Happy for our newest family member to join us. I know that when I am exercising faith in Heavenly Father, when I pray, and have the Spirit with me, I am happy and excited. It's only when I allow the Spirit to leave and begin to lose faith and begin to doubt that I feel anxious, nervous and alone.

36 weeks...

I am now 36 weeks, just 4 more weeks to go! I had a blast at my baby shower, so grateful to all my friends and family that made it possible (and so pretty!)

  I've been so distracted by my curiosity, lately... It is such a small and unimportant thing to be focusing on, but it has been a great distraction from stressing about everything!! 

  I love how vivid and crazy my dreams are when I'm pregnant. In my dreams about Emery, she has looked more like Aiden than Logan. Always dark hair, but sometimes olive skin and sometimes light skin... 

Comparisons:

Aiden has daddy's feet and my hands, and Logan has my feet and daddy's hands.

Aiden has daddy's hair, eyes, nose, mouth, and ears. And Logan has my hair, eyes, nose, mouth, and ears.

As nervous as I am about our lives changing so soon, I am still really excited for her arrival!!

{almost} 34 weeks...

Tomorrow I will be 34 weeks! I can't believe "D day" is just around the corner! I'm so excited for March 2nd- my baby shower!!
I wouldn't say I'm scared or nervous about delivery (for one, I've had two labors and deliveries so I " know the drill" and for anither, I feel comfort putting my faith in the doctors and nurses and Heavenly Father.) I haven't experienced a "c-section" because I didn't need one with either boy... 
But lately, its all I think about when I'm packing my hospital bag, or preparing for her arrival... It's a little unnerving to think about,  because it's the "unknown," but I think I'm just making myself nervous for no reason. So far, there has been no sign that I would need to go that route... But then again, I can't help but think I might be "being mentally prepared" for it...
If that's the case, I know that it's a common procedure, that I'll be in good hands, and that I can bring any fears to Heavenly Father.
Yesterday I had something new happen! I had been feeling lightheaded and weak around 3pm, so I filled a glass of water, grabbed a snack, and put a movie on for the boys and I (so I could sit for a while.)
About 20 minutes later I stood up to pee and felt horrible! I felt anxious, and dizzy, and my heart was pounding! I took my blood pressure kit with me and took my bp while in the bathroom, and it was 160/98 and my pulse was 100! That really scared me! I called my doctor and he said it was one if two things. A pregnancy-related heart arrhythmia (which is common) or Pregnancy Hypertension. He asked me to wait 30 mins and if my symptoms were not calming down, to go to Triage for an EKG...
Fortunately, within about 30-45 mins I did begin to feel better! 
And for as alarming as that was, I'm so grateful to be feeling better, and that it wasn't too serious! Message to Emery: Get comfy, cause you still have 43 days left! Love you! ;)

{almost} 32 weeks...

I feel so bad that I've neglected this blog! I am 32 weeks along, which means I am officially 8 months pregnant! Crazy!! In some ways this pregnancy feels like it's dragging along, but in so many other ways it has gone by SO fast! I cannot believe that in 8 weeks (or less) I will be holding my daughter in my arms! I'll get to see her face, look into her eyes, kiss her cheeks, hold her tiny hands, tickle her tiny toes... 
   AND I'll get to see who she looks like: will she look more Daddy or Mommy? Will she look more like Aiden does? With his olive skin, brown hair, brown eyes? Or will she look more like Logan does? With his light skin, blonde hair and hazel green eyes? OR will she surprise us and look like her cousins Aubrey and Jack and have the "Phillips" RED hair and BLUE eyes?!
  Needless to say, I am  so, SO excited to meet my daughter. And am very curious to see who she will look like!
  Aiden keeps asking when she will come out. I am so excited for he and Logan to have a sister, and excited to have a baby in our home, again! Aiden has shown what an amazing big brother he is, and we're excited that Logan will be a big brother now, too!