I mentioned in the previous post that if you look in a spectrum, you can see all the colors of the rainbow.
I thought about the word Spectrum. The word "Spectrum" was first used to describe the rainbow of colors in visible light when separated using a prism.
But looking at the origin of the word, it means "image, apparition."
From "specere:" to look.
What does it mean to look?
To see or understand?
We know that to "look" is to employ our sight. To search, to turn our glance, gaze, or attention.
But to "look" can be described in so many other ways. Such a simple, single syllable word has countless meanings!
To look after, To take care of, to look for, To search for, To expect, To
look into, To inquire into, To investigate, To look on or upon, To regard in a certain way, To look out, To be watchful or careful, To look over, To examine or inspect, To expect or hope to, To seem about to, To promise to, To search for and find, To become better, To improve.
A more modern use of the word "Spectrum" is used to describe a group or classification. For example, the autism spectrum.
I get so upset at the mention of the words Autism or Spectrum.
And call it what you will: denial, animosity, bitterness, resentment...
Autism and I have a complicated relationship.
Anyway, looking deeper into the word "Spectrum," I have seen that it also has a deeper and actually beautiful meaning...
For a reason only He knows for now, Heavenly Father has given Logan to us to care for, nurture, provide for, rear, love and raise in our family. And Logan has already endowed our lives with more blessings and understanding than We could have ever imagined.
Before coming to earth, Logan was given the choice to accept his body and his life knowing difficulties of Autism.
What a brave and courageous example!
Before coming to earth, I too, was given the choice and the opportunity to look after my son. And I accepted!
To take care of Logan.
To search for him.
To look on.
To be watchful and careful.
To expect and hope for.
To promise to.
To search for and find.
To make better.
To improve.
What a divine role motherhood is. I am so grateful for the ability and opportunity I have been given- the spectrum of experiences I can gain- by being a mother.
"Jesus loves the little children,
All the children of the world.
Red and Yellow, Black and White,
They are precious in His sight.
Jesus loves the little children of the world."
